18 days ago, I finally achieved what I have been searching for. I didn't think it would happen so suddenly, as noted in my previous entry: "i was sure i was on the verge of an epiphany about my own personality. turns out it's more of a subtle understanding than anything else, but it's only noticeable when i reflect on my old posts. perhaps it was an epiphany, but there was no moment of wonder or confusion when it occurred, it instantly became natural."
I was completely wrong. It hit me like a gunshot to the head.
I have been doing extensive research into what occurred. It is simply amazing to me that there is so much information available on the phenomena I experienced, yet even in my frantic search for peace of mind I did not come across any of it. I wish I had known about it all so long ago. I wish I had brought this upon myself in my adolescence. I will post again soon to elaborate on my findings; I must conclude this documented record of my search for enlightenment with all necessary details included. First, however, I must notify my immediate family of this journal's existence. Above all others, they need to know what has happened. Surely they must have noticed at some point that something about my mind was askew. In order to convey the magnitude of this event, I feel that my experiences up to this point must be conceived in correct chronology without the possibility of the conclusion creating a pre-conceived, biased opinion.
This has been a quest of mine since childhood. A quest to quell the troubles within my own mind and achieve true serenity. Only in the past year have I begun to document it.
For the first time in my life, I can truthfully say that I am happy.
My mind has been repaired. My consciousness has been uplifted.
I have evolved.
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