I have no reason for not sleeping today. I was prepared to go to bed at 12:30 after I got home from school, as I hadn't slept since my four-hour nap yesterday from 1-5 after staying up all night the night before. And then I popped another adderall on a whim and spontaneously decided to take my roommate chris and his friend doyle back to chester to get my tv, then proceeded to spend hours hooking it all up in our living room. During the car rides i had extremely long conversations with doyle about quantum mechanics, string theory, god and video games. chris and i talked a lot about music, mostly about metal and hard rock. it's like i suddenly switched from awkward moments and conversations to feeling like i've been friends with these people for a very long time.
and i know why today was different...
as soon as i got home from school, doyle was just waking up on the couch, and i started talking to him about science. chris came home from class and we went into his room to watch his video project, where doyle pulled out a bowl, ripped it, and handed it to me.
I said, "no thanks, I quit smoking" The words left my mouth with a feeling of reluctance. I almost changed my mind, but then doyle asked why and as I explained my reason, it reinforced it in my mind and left me confident in my decision. I'm glad I chose this outcome. As much as I love the great feeling that smoking gives me, the braindead state it leaves me in is torture. Today I had more fun than I've had any of the recent times I've smoked. I'm going to keep it this way.
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